(which is me?)Its like being stuck in a whirlpool,
not knowing who you real friends are.
No, i take that back, i know who are the real friends and who aren't
You've got to help me out on this one Subconscious.
My boy, people has repeatedly commented that you are too kind.
You youself knows the fact that you are being used or not.
Yes, it is your nature to help others if it's within your reach,
then again my boy, can you be so cruel to watch them die helplessly?
There is just so much to hate,
yet so much more to love.
Though most of the time you put hate infront of everything,
but at the very end of the day or when a new day emerges
you yourself desire to sit down infront of a window on a sofa and look at the sunrise/set.
To relax, to calm down, to ask for a new beginning
That's your nature my boy.
A test of your will
A test of your endurance
A test of your determination
Survive through it, and become a better man.
Alright great, you know me best.
Like no one else.
Come to think of it, of course you know me best!
You are the inner voice of myself talking to me when i've doubts.
The inner self that guides that tells me to stop doing a particular thing if its bad.
The inner self that tells me that i must study when i know i should and i don't
The inner self that came to me when i'm at my lowest
The inner self that picked me up and breed life into me
ok now i'm feeling so much better!
Time to study!
(P.S I do no have any mental illness nor illusionary friends.
I'm just closing my eyes and slowly think about each situation and how to react.
And most of the time there is an inner voice in you telling you that what you should do or not.
This is what i call my subconscious state. I'm just merely typing out what my subconscious state is telling me. No wait i don't care if you think i'm mentally unwell or not.)
