Dear Paul,
I've always wondered what kind of a person you are.
Much wasn't left of you when you left at 1992.
Today I asked Maria about you. She said you were the most gentle guy she have ever met.
She just couldn't stop praising you.
Well, guess you've made an impact in her life.
Wondered what life would be like with you around.
Would you still hold my hand like how you did in New Zeland backed then? Protecting me from all dangers? well just swans.
Would you impart me with all the knowledge of life?
Would you let me choose to lose my religion?
Would I grow to be what I am now?
Life would indeed be very different I guess.
Having a pastor as a grandfather.
You had to leave, you didn't had a choice.
You struggled to fight the cancer virus.
But you lost.
No wait, you won, you got yourself to a state that the virus could no longer hurt you physically nor mentally.
Today at your grave
I didn't speak.
I said everything i wanted to in my heart.
You heard it right?
Well of course you did, your blood runs in my flesh.
Today at your grave, i dropped a total of 2 tears
1 for being unfilial to you, visiting you after ages.
1 for not taking good care of Maria.
I chose to come on Christmas eve cause it's your festival, your religion's festival. And i hope you like the sun flower i chose. Maybe it's just to my liking, but i hope you like it.
"Maybe we go along life and expect all of the lights to be green,
and we think that the elevator should come as soon as we push the button.
Maybe we think that things should always be easy,
and when they're not we say,
"I didn't sign up for this."
But we did. - - It's exactly what we signed up for."
This reminder was necessary. This life, this existence and this person I am becoming -
Is exactly what I came to this earth for.
I am exactly who I came to earth to be.
and we think that the elevator should come as soon as we push the button.
Maybe we think that things should always be easy,
and when they're not we say,
"I didn't sign up for this."
But we did. - - It's exactly what we signed up for."
This reminder was necessary. This life, this existence and this person I am becoming -
Is exactly what I came to this earth for.
I am exactly who I came to earth to be.
My friend Edwin told me this today
He(Paul) could save the world, but not his grandson(me).
It kept me thinking lots.
As usual I think too much i guess.
On the year 1992, you have been called upon by the lord to rest on this shoulders with your burdens removed. Always remembered by wife, Maria Chua. Sons: Jason Chia, John Chia and Thomas Chia. Daughter, Pasty Chia and husband James Hea.
Lets add 1 more line.
Grandson: Daryl Chia.
Wishing you a Merry Christmas.
Remembering you always,
the unfilial grandson,
Daryl Chia.
The rain looked like snow today.
